...FOR SHE IS ALL OVER THE PLACE...SHIFTING TRIANGLES- VAGUS NERVE

VAGUS SENSORY NERVES HAVE A GENITAL SENSORY ROLE CARRYING STIMULI DIRECTLY TO THE BRAIN... BYPASSING THE SPINAL CORD...

THERE IS 'VAGUE-US' AS A RESULT OF MISDIRECTIONS AND MEDIATIONS AS THE INTEGRITY OF REAL PELVIC VASOCONGESTION IN TRUTH OF URGENCY IS REDIRECTED OR MISDIRECTED INTO POWER GREATER THAN LOVE OR DESIRE AS A STRATEGIST WAYS...

IT IS THE BARBI-CAN FORTRESS BLOCKED OUT OF REAL FEELINGS AND CONNECTIONS WITH 'FELT'...

ARCS OF

HIP TO HOLD AND HIP WARS

ACCUMULATIONS

IN GUTT BUTT

RANGES OF

HORIZONTAL DEFENSIVENESS CONTROLS...

BACK REARED TEMPOS OF COLLAPSINGS TO ENVELOP THE VANITY FEARS OF WHAT MIGHT BE EXPOSED--------CAUGHT IN THE ACT, AGAIN...

FOR WRACKED 'RACKS' OF CONFLICT DEMAND HOMAGE TO THE FANTASY VERSION OF IDENTITY...FOR DOUBT COMPELS RIGID FORTRESSINGS AND COMPLIANCES TO ENDURE AS THE HIDDEN IS TOO MUCH TO FACE...

SHE DREAMS 'ALL OVER THE PLACE'...TO COUNTER ANY DOUBTS OF 'BEAUTY' AND LOSS.......................................

FOR DENIAL FORCES OTHERS TO BE IN THE INCREASING NARROWNESS AND SHALLOWNESS OF SENSES EVEN AS THE 'POOF' ILLUSIONS
REQUIRE MORE ILLUSIONS...

IT IS A LACK OF FACE...FEAR OF LOSING FACE...
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VAGUS NERVE...

10TH CRANIAL NERVE IN THE HEAD AND FACE CONTAINS PATHWAYS THAT CONTRIBUTE TO THE REGULATION OF THE HEART AND OTHER ORGANS...THE VAGAL COMPLEX OF NERVE PATHINGS...
IT IS IN THE PRIMARY PATHINGS  OF REGULATORY BALANCE RESPONSIBLE FOR BREATHING...HOLDING ONE'S BREATH AND FOR 'NOT LETTING' STRESS OVERWHELM OUR BRAINS AUTOMATIC BREATHING RULES...

THE 2 SOURCE VAGAL COMPLEX HAS KEY LINKS BETWEEN ATTENTION, MOTION, EMOTION, LANGUAGE, COMMUNICATION----------AVERSIONS, 'TURNING AWAY', CLOSE MY EYES, SHUTTING DOWN...

THE FLOWS ARE INTO THE DEPTHS OF PELVIC ACTIVATION...POTENTIAL OF PLEASURE IN NATURAL FULLNESS AND RIGOROUS SEXUALITY...

TO MOVE THROUGH THE 'COMPETITION WITHIN' AS THE 2 DIFFERENT VAGAL NERVES PATHWAYS HOLD 'TRAUMAS, IMPACTS, FRIGHTS, DISGUST, TERROR, MASS OCCUR MADNESS, OFFENSIVE SIGNS AND SCENTS...EMOTIONAL PSYCHE HEALTH IS BREATHING THROUGH TREASURED LOSS AND REACTIVITY DEFIANCE FORMATIONS...

TRAUMAS VIOLENT AND SUBTLE

NOTES FROM COLIN ROSS[TRAUMA EXPERT] AS TRAUMAS HAVE AFFECTS ON BEHAVIORS AND IN INFLUENCES OF SEXUALITY...

VULNERABILITIES AND ISSUES OF TRUST-MISTRUST, LOW SELF ESTEEM, SHAME, MOOD DISORDERS AND IDENTITY AND INTIMACY ISSUES...

STRUGGLES IN CONFLICTS OF MEDIATIONS OF IMPOSITIONS AND COMPLIANCES...

INNER DIVISIONS DUE TO BEING WHO ONE IS EXPECTED TO BE AND THE REAL FEELINGS HELD WITHIN...

TRAUMAS OF TERROR, FEAR AND DAMAGE IN PSYCHE-EMOTIONAL-PHYSIOLOGICAL WAYS WHERE BLOCKS AND ANTICIPATORY REACTIONS PRECLUDE SPONTANEITY AND PRESENCE IN FULLNESS OF PLEASURE...

SUBTLE TRAUMAS OF EARLY HARM RESONANCE IN REACTIVITY FORMATION DEFENSES OR DEFIANCES THAT MAKE WILFULLNESS AN ENMESHMENT IN AN ENDLESS STRUGGLE WITHOUT TRUE WILL AND TRUTH OF URGENCY...

HARSH CRITICISM...EMOTIONAL ABSENCE...PUNITIVE PERFECTIONISM...BORDERLINE DOUBLE BINDS...ARE NOT USUALLY THOUGHT OF AS TRAUMA BUTT CAN HAVE A TRAUMATIC IMPACT ON DEVELOPMENT...

ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT...

SHOCK REACTIVITY IN BODILY DISTORTIONS OF HUNGERS...EMOTIONAL AND SPIRITUAL HUNGERS...TENDENCIES TO MASK AND VEIL IN AVOIDANCES...TO SEEK YET AVOID...

A WOUNDEDNESS SEEKING AFFECTION YET GOING INTO 'FLIGHT' AS EXPOSURE ACTIVATES FEARS OF SHAME[BEING CAUGHT IN THE ACT, AGAIN], GUILTY FEELINGS OF REPRESSED ANGERS OF HAVING BEEN MISTREATED, ABUSED OR NEGLECTED...HISTORIES OF PARENTAL 'OMISSION' MORE THAN DIRECT COMMISSIONS OF VIOLENCE...

RELATIONSHIP DIFFICULTIES, DISTURBANCES OF THE SELF, INNER CONFLICTS OF MEDIATED MANUFACTURED DEFENSIVE SELF AND THE INNER WOMAN-CHILD CALLING OUT TO BE PRESENT...

CONFUSIONS AND DENIALS OF A RIGHT OF CURIOSITY, EXPLORATIONS, AND STATES OF PLEASURE SEEKING THAT HAVE BEEN SUPPRESSED TO BE AS PARENTS WISHES DEMAND...PAIN INTERNALIZED INTO ORGANIC IMBALANCES AS HEALTHY EROS IS NOT PERMITTED...

THUS LONELINESS...EMOTIONAL NEEDS OF CONTEMPT IN FEARS OF POTENTIALLY BEING ABANDONED OR FEARS OF THE VERY THING OR STATE ONE SEEKS...

SOMETHING WILL BE TAKEN AWAY...SOMETHING IS NOT PROVIDED...ONE HAS NO RIGHT TO A REAL TRUTH OF URGENCY WITHOUT RATIONALIZING THE REASONS FOR OR AGAINST...FREQUENTLY RESULTING IN FROZEN OR PARALYSIS OR OPPORTUNITY MEANS OF GRATIFICATIONS, PROMISCUITY OR SAFENESS...THE INSTINCTS OF EROS BLOCKED BY TENETS OR DENIALS THAT MAKE HEALTHY SELF ESTEEM SOMEHOW 'BAD' OR WRONG.............

CHAIR PERSON AND FROZEN PIES, FROZEN PIPES AND PLUMBING DEPTHS

HER HIPS SWELLED IN FLESHINESS

WAITING WARILY

WATCHING AND ACCUMULATING, COLLECTING

FOR A LIFETIME OF PENETRATIONS

SOMETHING HELD BACK TO COUNTER

TERROR IN THE INNER CHILD OF MEDIATIONS

FOR RARELY RELEASED ENSURES
THAT SOMETHING IS THE CENTER
OF A '10-SHUN' STATE IN ENCOUNTER

AN EROTICIZED SENSUALIZED WANTING TO BE WANTED POWER QUESTING WHERE THE EFFECT OF SPIRALLINGS AND INNER LOOPINGS BECAME GREATER EACH TIME THUS DEMANDING SUBSTANTIALLY MORE TENSION...MORE INTENSITY DENSITY TRYING TO GET TO A 'LEVEL OF SATISFACTION'...

YET THE ORGASMIC RELEASE IN FULLNESS BECAME INCREASINGLY MORE DIFFICULT AS SUCCESSFUL ORGASM WAS NOT WHAT SHE DESIRED...HER POWER GREATER THAN LOVE MEANS OF OVERCOMING 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' FEELINGS AND RECURRENT FEELINGS OF DREAD, SHAME, GUILT AND PERFORMANCE BECAME HER FORTRESS ENDURANCE IN AN AVOID DANCE OF AVERSIONS...

FOR TRUTH OF URGENCY DESIRE HAD NEVER BEEN RELEASED ...ONLY PERFORMANCE

DOLLY AT A CHESS BOARD

INNER MOON MUSIC...

RHYTHMS AND CHOICES

SUCKING LIPS

.

O YEAH, O YEAH

.

HE JUST WANTS ME TO DO WHAT HE WANTS

.

BREATH AND REFLECTIONS, CONTROL AND CONTAINERINGS

.

A MERMAID FACING THE GLACIER

STRUGGLING WITH INSTINCTS BLOCKED

BY AN OUTER WORLD

.

SCOW...SHOULD.COULD.OUGHT.WOULD SATISFACTIONS OF AN AUTHORITY

.

COMPLIANCES...ADAPTATIONS...IMPOSITIONS...RULES

.

STRAINS, STRIVINGS TRYING TOO HARD AND BEING OUT OF BALANCE

MINDING ECHOES WITHOUT VISCERAL GENERATIVITY

SEEKING FLUIDITY YET ACCUMULATING 'WAITINGS'

A CART BEFORE HORSE MINDSET OF EXPECTANCY

TO GET SOMETHING FOR THE SUFFERING

INNER WEBBINGS OF DISTANCES...ROMANCES AND DREAM REVERIES

INTERIORITY OF DENIALS AND ANGERS LOOKING TO ERUPT

FOR A DIVIDED SELF IS UNABLE TO SPLIT IN TRANSFORMATION

ONLY ONENESS INTEGRATION IS ABLE TO RECRYTALLIZE

CONTROL...CONTROL...CONTROL...

IT IS VERY CONFUSING AS DOING WHAT OTHER NEEDS IS NOT MEETING SELF

AND WANTING TO WANTED IS NOT THE DESIRE OF SUCCESSFUL ORGASM

FOR ONE CANNOT BECOME FULLY PRESENT WITHOUT OPPOSITE CHARGINGS

TO FEEL ONENESS COMING INTO ONE'S TRUTH OF URGENCY

IS TO

BE

BEYOND

HIP WARS

AS

IF

IT IS

ON

THE OUTSIDE

IT

IS NOT

ON THE INSIDE...

PROJECTIONS,AVERSIONS, BRACINGS, FORTRESSINGS

A LACK IN ANY REAL CONNECTION...

TO MOVE ALONG THE GREAT STREAMS AND WARM WATERS...

OUT OF MISDIRECTIONS AND EMULATIONS...

OUT OF FILLED WITH SELF ABSORPTIONS OF CREATIVE PERCOLATION

OUT OF TRANCEROS ECHOIC SAT-HER-DAZE OPERA DRAMAS

OUT OF AND THROUGH THE WALLINGS OF VANITY-SHAME=MONITORINGS...

OUT OF MISTS AND CLOUDS AND VEILINGS

SEEING BEOND THE COMPELLING REACTIVITY DELUSIONS OF FALSENESS

SEEING REAL INNER NECESSITY PAST THE LEVERAGINGS OF STRATEGIES OF DESIRE

AND COSMETIC FACE SAVINGS INSTEAD OF FACE GAININGS

TO DISSOLVE RESCUE DRAMAS OF KNIGHTS, CASTLES, PRINCE AND PRINCESS

TO KNOW NO ONE IS LOVED ENOUGH OR IS THE FAIREST OF ALL

TO REALIZE THAT THE MAGIC DANCE OF FLIGHT IS DECEPTION

TO LEARN TO LET GO AND BE IN INTENT TO COME FORTH...

THE EARNED PASSAGE...SPONTANEITY AND PLEASURE IN PRESENCE

NO FEAR OF WHAT HE WANTS AS ONE DOES AS ONE TRULY DESIRES